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I've been in Iowa almost a week now and I have to say it leaves me feeling rather isolated. I think I am still getting over the shock of being so far away from everyone. It is hard not to let your mind wander to all of the things you have left behind though when there is very little to do on a Sunday afternoon that does not involve spending money. I really should go look for a job of some sort before I go too insane.

I guess my suitemates are alright. Taylor and Andrew tend to be rather high energy while Liz and Meredith are like the exact opposite. I really do not see much of Amanda or Jay so I cannot say I know them very well. My roomate Mark is also a bit of an enigma too. He has not said that much to me other than that he has a big family and that his aunt is dying.

I still really miss Ahra. I am still very much in love with her too but I can't say she anything towards me except a close friendship. I talked to Sarah last night about it and she described it as having a death grip on my past which does not allow me to experience new things. I don't think I am exactly like that. I just really hurt when I think about her and sometimes it is hard not to cry when I think of her. I really just want to pick up everything and go running back to her but I do not think that is the best option for me right now.

I just want her to know that I love her and I am still thinking about her no matter how far away she is. I am still waiting for her to send me her mailing address. I have this fun little button I wanted to send her. I just wish I did not feel so confused right now.